I diD iT...

today...a very memorable day...23rd of the month...the 2nd month...me her n few of my friends went to watch movie..well..its quite funny..but me n her doesnt realli enjoy to the max..she has alot to think....too much..i noe...she cant take it anymore..its been too much for her..all i can do..make her happy..for me...i was way too tired....slept at 4++ yday nite...n today..woke up at 7...haiz...got taekwondo..wat to do...sir say must go wor...at nite...around 9++..i got match...a snooker competition...i need to win..although those "kakis" not really pro...but..there is a condition...a very very pressurizing match for me...luckily...i have strong mental power...

the condition is not just winning the competiton...its was like adding the sum of marks i won the whole nite...wat a joke...i was very very stunned when i heard the condition...i know..he want to gain back my battling spirit...but...that condition onli suits me when last time i was quite good..now..i slack alot...misses alot of training...well..at last..i did it....i impressed my sifu...the first guy i beat wasnt "shuang"at me at all..haiz..sorry bro....

do you guys believe at "what comes around...goes around"means that..all the thing u did in the past..it will hunt u back...this time..i do believe...god....i know...u should have punished me...me...alone...not others..i cant bare to see her suffering..pls lar....

sorry..this post kinda short..i was badly injured now....after the match..i ran home..in rain...i wish the rainfalls will wake me up...then suddenly....BANG!!!!!!my beloved cue broke...my knee hurt...siu la ba...proton saga..hate it.....KNS....thats all..cant bare the pain liao..

by the way..tml is the starting for orientation..c all the new apiit-ians there...chaoz...

~ck~
(need a tongkat...not tongkat ali)

~sorry~(emo post...not for those damn solid-rock-like-heart-ppl)

hmm...had u all heard the song...sorry by buck cherry??
well...i heard the song when i was driving to college in the morning crew of hitz.fm..the songs was kinda emo..but i love the meanings of the lyric..thanks to joshua chan...he send me the song..and i keep on repeating the song...over and over again...here is the lyrics....

BUCKCHERRY LYRICS

"Sorry"

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die
(I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue, I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all you're sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry)
This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry!
[Chorus]

i damn love this song...that is why i specially dedicated this song to all the people that reads my blog...especially those people that i hurt before and someone which is very very meaningful to me now...******...u really means the world to me...maybe...there is no one that can replace you....im sorry...i did things that hurt u before...i might be quite emo sometimes...but...i also have a weak side...whenever the weak point was struck..i was hopeless..needs someone to be with me..there is my friends...even my college friends or even my friends from my secondary school..i really appreciate your company...

few weeks already...i been hit by a very very bad headache..my back aches again..but i need to stand strong..i need to fight against the will of god...i want to train back on taekwondo...even thought my condition will limits my progression..but i want to contribute something back to school...i know...and i realize..few of us need to sacrifice something for the benefits of all the people..well..thats the circle of life..with sacrifices only there will be outcomes and results...i had been an optimism practicer in my life...every obstacle and the challenge i face with..i can handle it calmly...think of it..and predict what the consequences are...well...i did...i succeeded...

but this time..even how optimist i am..i could not hold back my emotions from taking over myself...i can not accept the fact..the thing that u told me..well..if it happens on me..i still can hold on..but i really could not hold my emo-ness when i see someone that is around me suffering...sometimes..i did something that hurt u...i know..i'm bad..but i already tried my best to change..in fact..i did perfectly...a new person is born...i'm sorry coz my emotions swings damn fast(this is to all my college mates...friends...zhi...seng..all) the upper part of the day..u can see me active like tiger..but after a period of time..i might be dead like zombie...sitting down alone..moody...i dont know why...i could not find the source of it...

to ******....i had been to use to be with u..ur tease...ur smile..the way u say the others are leng zai...but..its ok...it has been a part of my life..i dare not to think when all this disappear in my life...although it is just a short period..but i do really appreciate it...thanks a lot....honestly...i had not been so guai during my life..i did not hook up with other person...i had been solely,...committed to this..i know..this is what i should do..believe me..don't doubt me...

well...to all of u all readers...i wanted to say a big fat SORRY to all of you that i offended..maybe sometimes i had been to over-the-limit...i might sometimes...this song really reveals my feeling now..feeling down and lonely..i know...you guys will be there for me...yes i do!!...i really appreciate it...really..thanks a lot.....

by the way..try to hear this song...and also try this out....

http://speedtest.10-fast-fingers.com/
(test ur speed of typing)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOirYmd-890
(sorry by buck cherry)

well..this few days i might not be online or updating my blog..i have a 4 day holiday...(thursday+friday+saturday+sunday)...wooooohuuuuuu...i need to use the time wisely to recharge back my batteries...hey...even human also have battery ok..!!!!!!!!

cheers all...have a nice weekend.....
chaoz...
~ck~
~in the after-emo-process stage~

sLeEpiNg m@r@tHon...

blur...mayb coz sleep for damn many freaking hours..wahahaha...after returned from genting..i was damn tired..wah lao....coz i had been waking up the whole nite..when joshua..elvin...suet yee...jing..n eve was sleeping so nice...i was thinking of many things when headache strikes me...damn it...

i dont use to eat ulphamol....panadol is the best companion...2 actifast will gao tim the pain..wat a relieve...headaches and flu..looks like period for me...juz it came very often this few weeks..i also dunnoe y...dun ask me....i hate flu more than i hate headaches....i rather exchange my flu with headache..coz..i couldnt bare the tiredness and boredom having flu..even with headaches..i still can do my regular routines..hahaha

well...i had received my SPM results....the results are as beautiful as stairs...got A B c and also D..wahahahaha...

these are my following results...

english a1

bm a2
maths a2
sej a2

add maths b3
moral b3
est b4

bio c5
phy c5

chem d7

well...im quite satisfied with the result..juz i mayb go remark for 2 subs...moral n est..i cant believe it...well...in the trial..i scored 90+ marks for the moral..n now..i got a b3 for it...haiz...speechless....

well..juz back from genting...arrive home around 7.30 lor...leave genting at 5.00 am...wow...during the trip back...the road was heavily covered with mist...god damn it...visibility=0..i was driving alone..alothough someone was beside me..i love to see her face when she sleep...without any worries...at least during dat 2 days..she is happy..glad dat can cheer her up....well..been to genting with juz 6 ppl inclucing me...elivn with his gf..n joshua with the gf....
elvin kena shoot gao gao...first word when she enter my car..talk to elvin...SI FAT GUAI...wah lao...the whole journey...elvin kept his mouth shut...prevent from kena shoot...then pick up his gf from bentong mcd..wah lao..shock all of us...elvin..u really didnt lie us..i will tell u wat it is...

reach there..check in...do alot of silly stuff....well...at least i can see the real face of joshua gf...wah lao..she laugh better than those japanese soldier after raping some malay aunties in malaysia last time...really scared me...haha..but i do believe that everyone was having a great time...IS IT??

well..when i reached home..i took bath...n sleep....from 8.00 sharp...i slept till 5.30..woke up..had the breakfast+lunch+dinner with my frens..then play snooker...although headache..i sapu the malay guy gao gao...i tot i was goin to lose...at least..i didnt embarrassed my sifu...wahahha..after the snookering..i went back home..sleep again..till 9.15...woke up..go mines..then headed to jusco..watch movies...then went back home around 3 gua..then sleep..till today morning around 11.20...just to watch american chopper..then watch csi...missed for a very long episode ady...

nite...had dinner with my family..superb happy coz thurs n fri no class..means holiday..wu huu.....dun forget..sum1 is booked by me.....

~~~~~here come the emoness~~~~~~(less emo ady lar...)

today..eve told me dat a siu la ba annoys her from few days ago..so she scolded him gao gao last nite...(well..i think dat he deserved it...do not ever mess with girls...) then today they met and play basketball...dat siu la ba..coz wanna pay revenge...he go tell others dat eve simply sleep with other guy..when she tell me...i was like...dat fella is in deep shit now...dun let me see that fella..or else..i gonna turn him from siu la ba...to big sifat loong....(ass-hole)coz dat fella really piss me off...and well done to eve coz she slap dat fella...good move...max combo...wow....

dats the end..and many ham sap lou go ask for eve de hp from all her frens...damn ham sap lar....if so desperate..call me lar..i bring them to jalan alor lar....no need so desperate...if no money...i pay rm30 lar..for the cheapskate agua to b*ow lar...hahaha..if u wanna f**k...also can..i pay for u all...juz with the condition..i gonna record it down...with cencoring ur face...

well...dats it....end here..gonna continue my marathon.....

cheers
~ck~

jOke...MaLaYsiAnS....

> Why Malaysian Government insists on using English for math and science?
>
> This is because the whole world uses the language as an information and/or technology language. How dangerous it will be if we try to use Bahasa, especially in school. See example below:-
>
>
> Hardware = barangkeras
>
> Software = baranglembut
>
> Joystick = batang gembira
>
> Plug and Play = cucuk dan main
>
> Port = lubang
>
> Server = pelayan
>
> Client = pelanggan
>
>
> Try to translate this:
>
> ENGLISH:
>
> That server gives a plug and play service to the client using either hardware or software joystick. The joystick goes into the port of the client.
>
>
> Now in BAHASA translation:
>
> Pelayan itu memberi pelanggannya layanan cucuk dan main dengan menggunakan batang gembira jenis keras atau lembut. Batang gembira itu akan dimasukkan ke dalam lubang pelanggan.
>
>
>
> Now you know WHY...?
>


haha..seriously...this looks like kinda insult in malaysia..but truly..i does means something...i do really think that the government make the best decision
in this millenium when they decided to change so that science and maths to be taught in english..well..it does not cause any negative effect on students n people rite..
futhermore...all the people are comfortable learning those subs in english...

ps: this joke originated from kent....


~ck~

cLaRiFicAtiOn...

attention to all people...for those people who read my blog...i would like to thank all of you guys...ladies and gentleman..i was alright and i had nothing t for u all to worry about...those nose bleeding + headache are some signs of late sleep and lack of sleep...thats all.....

mIddLe oF tHe niTE...

well...just woke up from sleeping..too much things to think about already....the main reason i woke up...its becoz i was damn headache..n my nose is bleeding...again...WTF...haiz...even my shirt for sleeping also full with blood...me..myself..was so shock that this time it become worst...for how it been like this..this is totally secret..i cant tell u all...futhermore..when i woke up and try to stand..the same problem occurred..haiz...

SPECIAL DEDICATION TO MS.******(no offense)

actually..i don't know what to say anymore...i was stunned..completely stunned...i didnt expect it to happen so fast...i shouldn't be happen so fast..if can..i rather hope that it happen to me...i really do...why....cause i really love you...too many things jumble in my head...in a corner...i really afraid that this is a lie..i am afraid that u take this reason to crack the relationship...if it is like that...i rather u don't make urself suffer and just straight to the point...sorry..i'm not doubting u....but...a lot of things appeared in my mind...

i don't really care whether it is 2 weeks..2 months..or even 2 hour...i just hope that u are alright...no matter how long the time frame was...i will be by ur side..even if u really wan to leave me...things happened so sudden...its just like all the problems start to appear after we started..if i was the cause...i apologize...i may leave...if things can be turned over with my sacrification..i can do it..i will...

sometimes..i think that im not good for u..didnt suit u...mayb i didnt spend enough time with u..but i already tried my best...i maybe tease u sumtimes..but i do really think that some of ur fans really love u more than i do...even 1 of them are willing to be the 3rd party...my heart crashed...if u really love him..or anyone of them...just go ahead...i would not block the way...

today u asked me the question..i was shocked..apparently...ur intonation was like hinting me that there is another guy beside me...maybe i was wrong..i know..i should not tell all this things..but...if i did not tell out...things might be too late for me...i will deeply appreciate this 2 weeks if i can...IF I CAN....i will try my best....pray hard....

~ck~

bLacK n wHitE

for those who noes me in the college..u all might notice this thing...all the shirt i have...just made up of....BLACK & WHITE..by the way..today i got criticize gao gao...

the story begins like this..this morning i was fetching my friend to his gf house..on the way...i went to bank to make some withdrawals...when i was inside..i saw a damn leng lui de leng lui inside the bank..wow...breathtaking....she was gorgeous...when i say about leng lui...the grades are like A..but those leng lui among leng lui....grade it urself...then another man comes in with his fren..
the he say...wah...workers from SUB also wake up so early de ar?wah lau er...coz i was wearing black all over...i was said that i work for SUB...i was like....siu la ba....i dont care if people says that i wore black all over..but i do care people said about u working at a not so pleasant place..which sells clothes...that are mainly black..shit...

another stupid thing occur..is when i went to mamak..few weeks ago..i was so familiar with the mamak..till i can add the limau..or kopi...or milo by myself...then an aunty came...oii...kasi nasi lemak satu....ALAMAK.....dont the aunties knows that MAMAK are for MUSLIMS WORKERS??


tips for new drivers...(especially for my fren..dedicated to him...***)

well..if u had an accident juz after few days or weeks after u get ur license...i think...its ok..its a part of the learning lar...if u didnt even met an accident before..it means ur learning is not completed yet...i ownself had accidents before..but this does not causes me to scared n prohibit myself from driving..i think..after an accident..u will be much more aware on what not to do when the next time u drive...

SPM RESULTS COMING OUT...
for all the school leavers last year....the spm results will be out on this wednesday..kinda nervous here though....dunnoe wat result i will get...on dat day too..i will not be in college..im goin out...wahahahahaha

p/s: is anyone have the secret recipe or traditional methods to kill headache...i need to kill it before it kills me off...i had few terrible headaches for the past couple of weeks...



buzzing off.....

~ck~

aNNouNcEmEnT...

guys...i will be MISSING IN ACTION (mia) for few days...if u all wanna find me..dun leave msg in the msn..coz my connection was not stable..it will sign in by itself..so...ur msg will be deleted...if got anything..msg my phone..plz....sorry for the incovenience..chaoz...

~ck~

tO sOme1 vErY sPeciAl...

hmm..this post dedicated to someone that i treasured most in my life....really...u r a part of my life...without u..im soulless...lifeless...losing all my directions...

hmm..when u tell me dat time u got the report already, i knew it is something that is not a good news..but....with all my strengths...i changed myself to be happy...and to stay strong..believe me...i wont leave u alone...

i really hope this wont be the one that crack our relationship...i dont hope it will end this fast..i told u before..it will be a long journey together..it would not end so fast...so easy...we had been so happy together..even the god also wont separate us...the main reason that he will separate us in mayb coz im not the one that suits u the most...but...truly....I LOVE YOU....

i wont leave u alone in this journey...i will support u throughout the process...i would not want u to endure the pain alone...u had been a part of my life...i wont want to lose u...not even once...think positively...be strong...everything can be cured....dont worry..there will always be a better tomorrow......

cheers...
~ck~

kinda down n moody.....

MARLBORO

well..i knew this word since i was in the secondary school..its not just a cigarette's brand or the sponsor for any racing events or teams..it does have much more meanings inside that some of us, GUYS..practice it in our daily life...its more popular than SMART or SWOT analysis..that we didnt really realize that this does really existed...MARLBORO....

M : men
A :always
R : remember
L : love
B : because
O : of
R : romance
O : only

hmm..is it real??does some mens really practices this?well...frankly..i do...last time...

~EmO~

hmm..quite of moody nowadays..received the full report of my medical check up...haha...still..i need to be a happy go lucky guy...i could not let others to worry about me...sure i do...i could not let my pain to stop me from doing what i like...i would not let it take away what i have...

today been to times square to watch 10,000 bc..the movie was like ma ma dei lar...before the beginning of the movie..i became too silent...i think too much of things...i really stunned when i saw the msg appeared on my phone...some msg that really shock me out...is it leukemia realli cant be cured??

i couldnt figure out..why sometimes the things that we want it the most could not be own by us...
well...that's what i like about it..the challenges..i will fight for what i want the most...but currently..i felt helpless..soulless..feeling like damn alone deep in my heart..evelyn..sorry for that msn message...and sorry for not telling u everything...i need to be alone....if u found someone better..tell me lerh......

today i also chat with mary ann...well...she looks very friendly...well..thats all for this post...too tired to write longer..anyway...HAPPY ELECTION DAY...

~emolicious guy~

cheers...
~ck~

tHe fEeLiNg oF lOsT..tHen ReGaIn...

there is a lot of things..that i lost in the past..then i regain back..then i lost again...i hate those feeling whereby i lost the things i precious the most...love....love...love...past memories hunts me down..bring me up to the highest point..and then kick me down back to earth like a piece of mud...
those feeling really sometimes make me damn moody...but now..i found something that can replace the old memories..love...i love someone deeply..i have my own reasons why i don't expose it too all of you...especially my college mates..cause i don't wanna leave a bad impression on u guys..well...i had a bad history..and i admit it...

besides love...i fallen back to the trap of snooker..i become addicted to it..although compared to last time..i wast so addicted to it now...few years before this..i was the pupil of mr.sam chong...well for u guys who do not know him..its ok...he is now coaching the national team of snooker and billiards...he is the one who brought out my inner spirits..well..im on the top of the world that time..me n my friend..bernard was just around 15 that year when we already can beat down many people..between both of us...we can beat each other..we both understand and know each other damn well...that is why we both become tag teams..but as soon after a defeat from a unknown guy..i broke down..agony has overcome myself...i even broke the cue...i was a very bad tempered guy....

kah mun..what u said about me was right..i was very bad tempered..i wont care about what others think...what others feel..but now things has changed...i also changed..i grow up...i can control my temper well now...n for poh ting..thanks for so supporting me...i do really need your support...although i do not speak to you both often..u both had been part of my life...

hmm..been busy with college life lately...someone's birthday is coming..gonna plan how to celebrate with her...haha...well..gonna sleep soon...

ps..:i had been sleep from yesterday 3 am till today 8.45 pm..wahahah..now i gonna sleep again..till tml morning 9.20am...

cheers...and good luck to all the couples...
~ck~

is there barriers between love?

well..i gonna tell a story today...hope u guys enjoy it...introduce the main characters to u all first...

(no offense)

MR. Char Siew Bao
MS. Loh Mai Kai
MS. Tan Tart

basically...the story begins like this...char siew bao was coupling with tan tart...but there is some problem happen between them...and they were like having cold wars...two of them are to ego to make the first move..too selfish..do not dare to show that they bow down to their partner...haiz...well..the cold war lasted for a period of time..while both of them are having their cold wars...char siew bao's ex-gf come back to find him...which is loh mai kai...wow..things are gonna be more and more complicated...

as soon as loh mai kai come back and find char siew bao...both of them are getting closer...they went out together...and they look like couples..they was like recalling back the memories of the past..where they both were still together...

but..char siew bao realize that he love tan tart more than loh mai kai...he knew that after he started a new relationship..he must be 100% committed to it...he must not do something that will betray his gf...finally..he rejected loh mai kai...

aren't u all had been trouble by this before..well..i did...maybe sometimes there is some memories came back to my mind...remembering how bad i treat someone that very love me before...because of my egoistic...many people are suffering...i realized it..i do...but things had changed now...SERIOUS....im not the old chan chee keong that you all knew me few years before...many people said my thinking has changed..maybe...i realize..its time to be matured...it it...

i knew that there is many things that has block certain beautiful relationship to happen...it is too much for me to list it down...i could not comment on it..coz my ownself has committed several of it...today..someone said that i have many love affairs...too much...playboy?? maybe...maybe i cant stay long in a relationship..the longest also is 1 year....(not complete)...the shortest even few hours..or 1 2 days...haiz...girls..u all should realize..u all could not demand too much from a guy...a guy might treat u like queen when they are chasing u..but its not guaranteed that they will also treat u like queen for the whole relationship with him...guys are like....rubber bands...the more u stretch it..it will snap...POP!!!!!

well..just to share out with all of you..my experience...a guy will change 360 degree if they wanted something different...something new..for me..i will get bored to the same thing or the same action for a certain period of time...thats the main factor that makes me look like a PLAYER...well...i hate myself..i hate players...i hope all of you don't follow my footsteps...but i promised all my brothers..mui mui..jie jie...to be more serious in a relationship..in fact..i do...really....

to all the couples out there...believe in your partner...trust is the most important thing between both of you..without trust..many minor things will change to big things...and it might also causes break ups...i definitely do not wanna see something like that....PLEASE!!do not trust what other ridiculous people say de thing..i nearly fall in one of those traps....

leave comments for me..am i a player??playboy....

honestly..tell me...

cheers...
~ck~

wEeKeNDs...(love is in the air)

well...i just came home from my friend's birthday party...apparently, my leg sore like hell...n tomorrow i got my taekwondo lesson..omg...eventually, he called a lut-lut car and we need to stand and eat it...most of the people there ate very less so me n few of my friends need to sapu all the remaining...

at my friend's house..i saw someone that i had never seen for a long time...truly..i really miss all of you...i really wanted to talk to you but i really scared there will be a misunderstanding...but at last...i came home...take bath..then go play snooker again...i improved my skills a lot...3-0...wahahaha...honestly..when i play pool or snooker..it depends on my mood...my accuracy and skills also will vary time to time..well well well..most probably i havent trained myself to the professional level..haiz....

today was a quite special day..it happens 4 years once...well..today also i realize...how to love someone..how to be love...well..i guess i might leave the question to all of you..do reply it...

cheers...
~ck~