EMO…

i saw the blog..she updated…

i also entered the post which she locked earlier on…

i could not guess the hint…until today..i realize what is the true password for the meaning she wanted to transfer to me…

seriously..i felt hurt and sad when she said that she is going oversea…

why??i mean..she said she might go there in near future..not now…

but..since she made the decision…i could not do anything more…

had been to the place where me and her frequent visited in the past…

memory by memory..flashes and slides in my mind…

at least by now..i can know her life by seeing her blog…

but..i dont think it will last long..

i dont even know how long more i can stand..

T..T

never have a title of ur blog post..

coz..i dont even know what am i going to write about..

seriously…i turned to be a damn bad guy this round of time…

i was uncertain and i made a big decision in my life…

i dont know…i was too confused…

i was thinking…when i make the decision..SOMEONE could change me…make me to undo the decision..

but…to my disappointment…she doesnt…

i dont know why…

when i was in stress or upset…i was really hoping she is the one that can really cheer me up rather than just OH OH OH in the phone conversation…

i dont mind her past…i dont mind what she did…but..i too need people to support too..

i believe..every guy..or men need a partner that can truly support or understand themselves…to talk whenever needed…

a guy does not need to tell out every single things that happen to him…a person that understands him can easily read it by his actions or words…

i was too frustrated and tensed up..why is she losing confidence in me??

in 1 or 2 days time..she will say that she is having a dilemma and dreams that i will leave her…if she trust me and believe in me..this wont be happening…

i admit…i had sacrificed my time in the weekend for working rather than spending it with her…but..i have my own reasons..i said it before…

but…reading from her blog..i knew..she enjoy her life…even though i get scolding from her friends  or getting pinned down from her friends..it worth it….

i knew…what is my condition..i knew…the pain is getting stronger…even actifast could not cure it anymore…

by the way..thanks for being with me for so long…..i totally appreciate it…hope u will gain happiness in the other relationship…

23 is a very lucky number for me and her…

23rd of each month, we have celebrations in different venues…

just to remind us..

the important day..

23rd of January 2008…

the day we started to be “couple”…

1 year after dat…

23rd of January 2009..which is today

well…some might think…we have a lot of sweet memories in between…

yes we did..

but…in the middle..we too had a lot of hard times together…

we quarrel and we also broke up several time…

but..it was my pleasure that she accepted me again…

after all the disadvantage and weakness in me…

she had pour in trust and love in me again…

thanks dear..

i will never forget the way u treat me…

although the day we been back together is not long..

but…for me..

its already the best for me….

love u dear…

Mega Blog Update

Due to my laziness....it was obvious that I left my blog for quite a time...

But.. as soon as I realize it... I was overly excited and happy to post a brand new post in this blog...

here goes..the Mega Blog entry....

 

Starting off...

1. Celebration of New Year Eve..

quite a number of people asked me...where do I spent my New Year Countdown with...

I was proud to say...I and a bunch of my friends was invited to a penthouse in KL area to watch the magnificent firework display on a 40th floor penthouse...

The view was breathtaking and we enjoyed the whole process while we are there...

View from the Penthouse

moving on...my own resolution for year 2009.. the bull shit year...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

made a decision...to continue my degree level studies in APIIT..

why?

it was because i was too lazy to change to other colleges.

it requires a lot of documents and it need to went through a lot of process before i was entitled to enter the college...

furthermore...i am going to register myself for the January intake in APIIT.to be exact..it was during the Chiuese New Year...

besides that...

i found another objective or task to be achieved this year..

I NEED TO LEARN TO COOK!!!

since no one was willing to cook for me..

i need to learn on how to survive...

imagine of this situation...

1. car ran out of fuel

2. wallet ran out of cash

3. phone out of credit

4. refrigerator full of uncooked vegetables and meats...

5. you don't even know how to start the stove

how are you going to survive in this extraordinary circumstances?

that is why..i picked up the intention to learn to cook...

was looking for the book...anyone give a helping hand??

that was about my new year's resolution.....

this part..the thing that i most dulan after 2009 reached...

1. MY PHONE GOT BARRED!!

you all know this thing....a mobile service provider...

has barred my phone...

and i don't even know how the hell that happened..

i paid every month..

RM100++..but..i still got barred...

tomorrow..i going to shoot the manager's head off...

i just checked my bills...

and he is a dead man....going to be...

2. THE CHAOTIC TRAFFIC JAM

after the school reopen..

every single Malaysian knew that the highway is going to be damned congested again..

all the hotspots around the KL area going to be even HOTTER!!

even the temperature in KL is increasing drastically...

besides that..

what causes the traffic jam....

in the KL-SEREMBAN HIGHWAY...

traffic was currently bumper to bumper as a stalled bus was interfering one of the lane of the highway..

due to on-lookers..it creates huge pile up in the area where the stalled bus was located and it too creates some minor accidents..

omg...come on lar...

people fall down...also kepoh..slow down...go and see..

monkey come out...also kepoh..slow down and see

bus spoiled...also kepoh..

people accident..clap hand and say the person who was driving was not skillful enough...

too much criticism threw on the unlucky party ya!!

calculate it and see..

1 car slowed down from 80km/h to 15km/h = increase of more than 30 seconds delay...

10 cars= more 3 minutes delay...

imagine 1000++ cars passed by the same area...how long will us be held up in the massive traffic jam?

 

that is some of the things that really get me piss off...

by the way..

here is some picture of some car sticker fanatic that i saw..

 

i wonder..

how is he/she going to squeeze his tiny eye sight..over the tiny spaces through the tiny sticker that were placed in the tiny rear car mirror..

MAGNIFICENT......RESPECT!!!!

 

here is some recommendation from me..

a year to be proud of? maybe...

i left my blog alone for some time...
i think...
its time for me to get in touch of all the people out there..

honestly..
i get too tensed up and to stressed up this few weeks..
some say i was too busy..having too much of socializing with my friends..
well..
i admit it...

year 2008..
passed in a glimpse of eye...
too many things happened...
haha...
i was too proud on what happened..
major change on myself..
make too many decisions...
right and wrong..
it was the people to decide it...

just before i landed in a 2 week holiday from my college...
i was too addicted with facebook...
too addicted with the games there...
before hand..
i was too addicted to forums..
that makes me neglected all my surroundings...

resolution for year 2009?
well...
achieve what i cant achieve in the previous years...
do what i cant do in the previous years...

by the way...
i sorted out my time quite well..
i think..
wont be too busy anymore..
any appointment or calls...will depend on the priority..
and i was working for demo power currently...
was appointed and called....
NESCAFE BOY...greater aroma..greater taste...
have some...

signing off...
have a nice day..nice year...nice life...
happy new year 2009..bye f*cked up 2008...
~ck~